I'm sorry you're feeling so bad and that people you have to spend lots of time with are making you feel that way. I feel silly for saying it, but since I don't know you all I can say is that it takes a warm and kind person to write stories like you do, and it seems to me that a lot of people think you're really great. I'm sending some moral support your way, if it helps! And wishing you all the best with everything else... *hugs*