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piplover ([personal profile] piplover) wrote2004-04-14 09:19 pm
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Now I remember the reason I held out so long to get help for my depression. I don't like medication, or the effects they have on me.
I am taking an anti-depresent now, and it is starting to help, but it makes me feel weird. Its rather like I know how I would normaly be feeling, and I don't feel that way. Like feeling a shadow of what I would normally be feeling, and rather than be happy, it's very frusterating. Does that make sense?
I don't know how else to describe it. It's like my mind is being wrapped in a blanket. I want to feel depressed and sad, and all I feel is a blank. It makes me want to toss something, because this is so unatural for me. I guess I'm just rambling right now, but it is really disconcerting.
And besides that, it makes me dizzy, so I go around walking into things all day. Sigh.
I hope that once I get used to the medication, it will not be like this.

[identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com 2004-04-15 05:07 am (UTC)(link)
Talk to your doctor, tell him/her what side effects you are getting, and see if you can't adjust the dosage down. If nothing else, set up a timetable -- if you aren't adjusting to the meds by such and such a date, then you'll try something else..

Doctors can be very good, but I haven't met a telepathic one yet. And reactions to medications (including herbal stuff) are very individual. You know your body best. Getting the balance of meds right is up to you.

(gives up pontificating, hopes it helped...)

[identity profile] piplover.livejournal.com 2004-04-15 07:05 pm (UTC)(link)
It does. I feel like I'm swimming upstream and all I'm missing is a fellow salmon to mate with. I have to talk to my doctor when I get back from the field, because I don't think I like these meds at all.
Hugs!

[identity profile] rabidsamfan.livejournal.com 2004-04-15 08:40 pm (UTC)(link)
I probably shouldn't snicker at your imagery, but the salmon looking for a mate was too delicious. Your sense of wordplay is intact at least!

Good luck with the doctors!