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[piplover]

Now I remember the reason I held out so long to get help for my depression. I don't like medication, or the effects they have on me.
I am taking an anti-depresent now, and it is starting to help, but it makes me feel weird. Its rather like I know how I would normaly be feeling, and I don't feel that way. Like feeling a shadow of what I would normally be feeling, and rather than be happy, it's very frusterating. Does that make sense?
I don't know how else to describe it. It's like my mind is being wrapped in a blanket. I want to feel depressed and sad, and all I feel is a blank. It makes me want to toss something, because this is so unatural for me. I guess I'm just rambling right now, but it is really disconcerting.
And besides that, it makes me dizzy, so I go around walking into things all day. Sigh.
I hope that once I get used to the medication, it will not be like this.

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[piplover.livejournal.com]

It does. I feel like I'm swimming upstream and all I'm missing is a fellow salmon to mate with. I have to talk to my doctor when I get back from the field, because I don't think I like these meds at all.
Hugs!

[rabidsamfan.livejournal.com]

I probably shouldn't snicker at your imagery, but the salmon looking for a mate was too delicious. Your sense of wordplay is intact at least!

Good luck with the doctors!