piplover | (no subject)

I hate my job, I hate my life, I hate the fact that I won't see my fiance for probably a year. I hate they are deploying me right before Christmas, and that we'll probably be over there for a year. I hate that no one on my team likes me, and makes no qualms against telling me. I hate that I can't seem to do anything right, and that I'm slower and weaker than everyone else.
I hate my life!
I'm miserable right now, depressed, and just want to fall off the face of the earth. My computer is slowly self-destructing, I can't even write, and this day isn't going to end soon enough.
I feel like I'm going to have another breakdown, but even if I do, it won't change anything.
I just wish everything was over right now.