We'll see what happens

[piplover]

I called in sick today.  I don't know what's going to happen, but I after spending a miserable morning making myself sicker by battling with myself, I just don't think I would be any good if I went in today.  Yesterday was a bitch, the headache didn't go away at all, and I felt so miserable by the end that I was ready to do just about anything to get rid of the pain.  Today the headache is a little better, but my stomach is killing me and I feel weak and shaky.  The VA is closed today, and I can't afford Doc in a Box, so I'm just going to take some more pain stuff, hope it works, and be miserable.  If they fire me, they fire me, and there's nothing I can do about it.  

Damnit.  For once, just once, I wish I didn't have to screw up a good thing because my body is a mess.  

I'll reply to comments later, I'm just going to curl up in bed and be sick for now.