All Things Sad Become Untrue

Hi, everyone!  I'm still alive!  Wow, I've been quiet this year. 

Not a whole lot going on, however.  I'm still looking into other jobs, but right now nothing is very viable.  Either it's a really big pay cut or it's only a temporary position, so I'm doing my best to see if I can find anything in the company that won't make me go insane and praying I can interview without making myself look like an idiot.  

I had another date last week.  We went bowling and he kicked my ass.  It was fun, but I'm not really feeling any sparks.  He's going to make me dinner next week, so we'll see how that goes.  I'm not really expecting anything, but if nothing else, I figure he's fun and we can be friends.

Haven't written anything in a week or so. It feels weird after the writing spree I was on for a while.  I need some plot bunnies!  

Anyway, that's about it for me. I had a great birthday and received some wonderful gifts, and have just basically been hibernating the past few weeks, lol.

Take care all!

Hello, everyone!  Sorry I've been so quiet lately, but Christmas has been taking its toll on me, and I don't want to fill up my list with my whining.  I've been trying to keep my spirits up and not be depressed by the crazy customers or the fact I  have to work a regular shift on Christmas day.  Yeah, still feeling the sting of that one.

But my family is going to be celebrating on Christmas Eve, so I'm trying to stay upbeat and just enjoy the season as much as I can. 

So, enough of that.

The cats are doing well, and I'm doing all right.  My stomach is still being touchy, and I'm trying to take it one day at a time and not worry that I'll never be 100% again.  I have good days that are becoming more, so I'm going to be happy about that and deal with the pain when I have to.

My apartment is all decorated, I have pumpkin eggnog in the fridge, and since I'm working from home I can have all the Christmas music or movies on in the background that I can stand.  Plus, my two little monsters are keeping me company!

Also, I talked to my manager and asked about the possibility of being able to work from home a few days a week and coming in to the building the others.  I think that would be a great way to keep my stress down and save on gas, but also get me out of the apartment and around people.  I don't know if I will be able to, but the question has been asked and they're looking into it for me.  

Also also!  I talked to my sister yesterday and it turns out March will not be a good time for me to visit, as she will be trying to survive finals and essays out the wazoo.  So I'm going to head over in April.  Now I have to find out if I want to arrange to be there for the royal wedding, or skip that madness and go a bit earlier to miss it, but still get some of the excitement.   Any thoughts from my England friends?

I'm really looking forward to seeing her and London again.  And also meeting some of you who have been so amazing to me, but who I have never met face to face.  My sister said pretty much anytime after the first week in April, so anyone have any ideas? 

I'm also looking forward to meeting her boyfriend.  He's a royal marine and will have just come back from Afghanistan.  He sounds like a very nice man who is treating my sister well, but I think it would be great to just meet him!  I didn't even meet my sister's ex-husband until right before her wedding, lol!  Not that they are anywhere near there.  They have only been dating for a few months. But still....

I'm looking forward to visiting some of the pubs near where she lives and trying not to make a fool of myself.  My sister is a drinker, and so are a lot of her friends.  I am not.   We're very much two totally different people, and we don't go in the same circles at all.  But still...  I think it will be fun!

Also, going in April will give me more time to lose the weight!  I still have my heart set on losing 30 pounds before I head over.  I know I can do this!  I just have to really work at it.  My main problem is getting out and exercising.  Recently I've been so tired that's it's a struggle just getting out of bed in the morning.  Part of it is the cold weather, and another is fighting depression.  But I think once Christmas has passed, I'll feel a lot better and able to take on the world!

Plus, I'll have more vacation time saved up, and more money, lol!

So, this is where I stand right now.  I've sent out the most of my Christmas cards, just have to get a few more stamps and then the rest will be shipped out.  I have all but one of my presents bought, and I'm just hoping to survive in relatively good spirits.

Anyway, not much else to report!  I'll be starting to post my massive Holmes epic probably next week (SQUEE!!) and I'm getting excited about that.  I hope everyone has a lovely weekend and you are all doing well.  Take care!

Hello, all!  I'm still alive!  

I know my last post was pretty grim, and I haven't posted in a while.  But I am doing much, much better.  The money issue has mainly sorted itself out in that I have vowed not to make myself sick overthinking things.  I'm going to do the best I can, and it will work itself out. 

I had 6 days off this past week, from Thursday until yesterday, Tuesday.  It was so nice!  My mom and I took my sister back to Seattle on Thursday to say goodbye before she takes off for England, and then I spent Saturday at our local county fair.  I indulged and had a corndog, a caramel apple, and a giant lemonade, lol.  Also, I splurged and bought myself some earrings for 6$. I was very proud of myself for only going on 3 rides, and just enjoying the day.

Monday I went to Ellensburg, about 2 hours from where I live, to meet up with enkiduts and have our very own fangirl day of squeeing over Holmes.  

Also, I got new tires on my car, since the old ones were almost literally about to die a painful death, and got my oil changed.  Thank God for credit cards, even though just the thought of how much it cost is enough to make me wince.  Still... It had to be done.

Anyway, now I am back at work.  It's been pretty quiet today, and I'm fighting off a headache that seems to have come out of nowhere. I was actually pretty excited to be back at work. I have a new schedule, hence the long weekend.  Now I work Wed-Sat, which isn't nearly as nice as the Sun-Wed, but oh well.  I still get my three day weekend, and this will actually work out better because the family usually has Sunday off.  

Anyway, that's my boring life.  I hate this new twitter/ facebook thing.  Good God, LJ, get your head out of your ass!  Sheesh.  I think you can all guess what my policy is on linking, but if not, please don't.  

And that's about it.  How are you all doing?  I've been following everyone's LJ, but if anything new and exciting is happening, let me know.  I love you all!  

((((HUGS FLIST))))

Hello all.

Today is cleaning day. I have put it off far too long, and I guess the cleaning bug has bitten. I woke up this morning making plans, people! The only downfall to this plan is that, although I happen to have 3 vacuum cleaners (don't ask) not one of them seems to work at the moment. Sigh.   So, slight problem to the plan, but I will somehow figure out how to fix it. 

I am not looking forward to scrubbing the bathroom.  It's not that it's dusgusting, because I do clean it, but I'm talking about getting on hands and knees and scrubbing the floor.  I have two cats who love to shed, no matter what time of year, and all that fur seems to gather in the bathroom.  So today that is the main goal, to try and get that taken care of.  Wish me luck!

As to laundry, I'm going over to Mom's while she's away and going to do it over there.  Also, she has a line I can dry my stuff on, which is perfect because that means I can leave it, go to my doctor's appointment, and then come back and have it smelling fresh and clean and ready to be put away.  

Tackling the bedroom?  That may be tomorrow's project.  It all depends on how much energy I have.  I'm trying to pace myself so I don't just burn up before I get through most of the stuff I have to, so we'll see at the end of the day what I've accomplished.  

How is everyone else doing today?

I think I am quite ready for some seclusion from the world.  Spending the last few weeks in the bosom of my family has made me crave being a hermit.  

My dad flew up from Florida last week, and my sister flew down from Seattle.  It was the first time my family has all been together since 2001.  It would have been great if my brother hadn't ended up in the hospital.  Food poisoning, apparently.   He should be released tomorrow, just in time to say good bye to my dad, as my sister flew back today.  I've been designated errand girl, which hasn't left much time for job searching.  I have to really go back to that in earnest after my dad leaves and my brother is all right.  

elayna88 Thank you so much for the card.  It brightened my day immeasurably, it truly did.  Thank you. 

I hope everyone else is doing well.  Have I missed anything important the past week?  

Still not dead. Still have flu. But hey, lost five pounds, so yay for being sick. Take care, all.

Earlier today I made the stupid mistake of answering the door to a salesman.  He had some cool products so I let him in.  I am an idiot!  After about ten minutes he started touching me, on the arm, my hip, he even touched my leg!   I told him I wasn't interested in buying anything, but he pulled the "I don't speak good English" card and pretended he didn't understand.  I told him I couldn't afford anything and wasn't going to buy anything, so he could leave. 

He asked me out.  I told him no.  At this point, I know I should have told him to get the hell out of my apartment and never come back, but I was still trying to be polite and told him I didn't want to buy anything.  He gave me his number, put me down on his possible future client list, and then finally left.

Well, about an hour ago he came back.  And rang my doorbell.  And called me four times when I didn't answer.  Then rang the doorbell another couple of times.  And just stood outside my door. 

I called the police and my mom, because all my Army training aside, the first thing I think of when I'm scared is to call my mom.  The guy left for a few minutes, called me a few more times, then came back to ring the bell a few more times.  Luckily, that was when the police showed up and told him to never darken my doorstep again.  I had to laugh when one officer asked the guy, "Does your wife know you're a pervert?" 

So hopefully, that is the end of that strange saga, and I can go back to being my regular stupid self, only without opening the door to salespeople.  Sorry, salespeople, but I'm a poor college student, anyway. 

I'm still shaking. 

I had a good day today. Saw Pirates of the Carribean 2, which just totally rocked. Got my hair cut, and a tire changed on my car, so I no longer have to fear death from flying rubber on the freeway again. Also, and this is the big thing, I wasn't tired.
That may sound a little weird, but here's the thing. When I got out of the military, I was totally exhausted. I mean, I would wake up around 10, have breakfast, putter around the house, then take a three or four hour nap. I did that for like, three months.
I guess I was really sleep deprived while in the Army, but as I was so busy doing stuff and running around, I didn't notice. When I finally stopped and just relaxed, it hit me big time.
I think I'm finally over it, lol, one year later. I have energy again, I can go the whole day without a nap, though I do love them still. And I'm not sleeping in until 11 or 12.
It feels good to feel alive again.

Hello! Well, I'm back from my last FTX, and oh, goodness, my bed has never been so comfy! I just wanted to let you all know that I am still alive, and thinking of all of you. I hope you are doing all right, and that I haven't missed any major incidents or cirsis lately. And for those of you still hoping I am writing, I can assure you that I have two stories on the way. Its just taking me a bit longer than normal, lol. I hope everyone has a great day, and I will pop in a little later. Take care, all, and Goddess bless! (((((((FLIST)))))))))