All Things Sad Become Untrue

I did something I thought I would never do. I gave my mom a copy of Soldier's Heart.  My Sherlock Holmes story that has explicit slash sex in it.  OMG, what have I done?  

*Face palm*

Also, I gave my sister a link to the story on AO3.  I think I'm either crazy, or incredibly foolish.

But...

My family hasn't read anything I've written except for a few essays for university and some stories I wrote when I  was, like, 12.  And I'm really proud of that story.  I'm really proud that it's almost 200 pages, and that I spent nearly 9 months on it, and that I poured my soul into it and made it as good as I possibly could.  And I think I just wanted my family to know, if only in this one instance, what I can do when I try.

I don't think my mom will be horrified. I warned her as I handed her the copy what it contained, and she just smiled and told me she didn't care. I also warned my sister when she said she wanted to read it.  So I don't know what they'll think of it.

But I hope they like it.  And they won't laugh, or tell me it isn't very good.  I want them to like it, and be proud of me.  

This is, honestly, the first fannish thing they have read of mine.  I don't know if I want to stand defiant and say, "Yes, this is me, all of me, and I'm not ashamed!"  Or to bury my face in my hands and just hope they never mention it again.

Has anyone else showed their family their writing, especially if it has NC-17 in it?  Honestly, this is the ONLY thing I've written with NC-17 content, so of course I have to give it to them.

Oh, God!

Title: Soldier's Heart Part 14
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 09 and Canon
Rating: This chapter NC-17
Wordcount: 85,307
Parings: Holmes/Watson
Summary: After Holmes returns from his three years' absence, not everything is as it should be.
Warnings: Deals with the physical and mental aspects of PTSD
Beta and Brit-picker: Beta'ed by the lovely jenlee1  and Brit-picked by the wonderful nodbear 
Author's notes: Thanks always for enkiduts  ' help, encouragement, and brainstorming .
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Part 15

Title: Soldier's Heart Part 12
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 09 and Canon
Rating: This chapter NC-17
Wordcount: 85,307
Parings: Holmes/Watson
Summary: After Holmes returns from his three years' absence, not everything is as it should be.
Warnings: Deals with the physical and mental aspects of PTSD
Beta and Brit-picker: Beta'ed by the lovely jenlee1  and Brit-picked by the wonderful nodbear 
Author's notes: Thanks always for enkiduts ' help, encouragement, and brainstorming .

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Part 13

Title: Soldier's Heart Part 10
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 09 and Canon
Rating: This chapter NC-17
Wordcount: 85,307
Parings: Holmes/Watson
Summary: After Holmes returns from his three years' absence, not everything is as it should be.
Warnings: Deals with the physical and mental aspects of PTSD
Beta and Brit-picker: Beta'ed by the lovely jenlee1  and Brit-picked by the wonderful nodbear 
Author's notes: Thanks always for enkiduts  ' help, encouragement, and brainstorming .
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Part 11

Title: Soldier's Heart Part 8
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 09 and Canon
Rating: This chapter PG-13
Wordcount: 85,307
Parings: Holmes/Watson
Summary: After Holmes returns from his three years' absence, not everything is as it should be.
Warnings: Deals with the physical and mental aspects of PTSD
Beta and Brit-picker: Beta'ed by the lovely jenlee1  and Brit-picked by the wonderful nodbear 
Author's notes: Thanks always for enkiduts  ' help, encouragement, and brainstorming .
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Part 9

Title: Soldier's Heart Part 5
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 09 and Canon
Rating: This chapter PG
Wordcount: 85,307
Parings: Holmes/Watson
Summary: After Holmes returns from his three years' absence, not everything is as it should be.
Warnings: Deals with the physical and mental aspects of PTSD
Beta and Brit-picker: Beta'ed by the lovely jenlee1  and Brit-picked by the wonderful nodbear 
Author's notes: Thanks always for enkiduts  ' help, encouragement, and brainstorming .
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Part 6

Title: Soldier's Heart Part 7
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 09 and Canon
Rating: This chapter PG
Wordcount: 85,307
Parings: Holmes/Watson
Summary: After Holmes returns from his three years' absence, not everything is as it should be.
Warnings: Deals with the physical aspects of PTSD and bodily functions
Beta and Brit-picker: Beta'ed by the lovely jenlee1  and Brit-picked by the wonderful nodbear 
Author's notes: Thanks always for enkiduts ' help, encouragement, and brainstorming .

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Part 8

Title: Soldier's Heart Part 4
Fandom: Sherlock Holmes 09 and Canon
Rating: PG to NC-17
Wordcount: 85,307
Parings: Holmes/Watson
Summary: After Holmes returns from his three years' absence, not everything is as it should be.
Warnings: Deals with the physical and mental aspects of PTSD
Beta and Brit-picker: Beta'ed by the lovely jenlee1  and Brit-picked by the wonderful nodbear 
Author's notes: This fic was a labor of love, and would literally not exist without the help and encouragement of enkiduts .
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Part 5

Title:  Soldier's Heart  Part 2
Fandom:  Sherlock Holmes 09 and Canon
Rating:  PG to NC-17
Wordcount:  85,307
Parings:  Holmes/Watson
Warnings:  Deals with the physical and mental aspects of PTSD
Beta and Brit-picker:  Beta'ed by the lovely jenlee1 and Brit-picked by the wonderful nodbear 

  ( Part 2 of Soldier's Heart ) Part 3