Still Alive
Jul. 8th, 2009 12:03 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
piploverHey, everyone. Sorry it's been a while since I've posted. I was super busy 4th of July weekend and then work kind of got crazy. Today I spent with Boy-who-I-am-dating and basically zooming around the city shopping.
Got my new glasses in today, yay! I look way cool, for a geek, and I can see again!
Not much happening. Work is going good, so I'm still hoping to be converted to a regular instead of a seasonal. Although it's not what I want to do with the rest of my life, it is a good paying job and the people are really great. So, here's hoping I can keep kicking butt and they decide they want to keep me.
Have been fighting depression the past few days. Even though everything is going well and there really isn't a reason, I've been sinking slowly again. Gar. I have a doctor's appointment next week and hopefully we'll figure something out. Had a bunch of lab work done and it turns out I have a Vitamin D deficiency, which probably explains a lot. I plan on spending as much time as I can stand outside in the sunshine tomorrow. It's been in the 100s F, though, so I may just have to settle for taking a supplement.
The big thing for me, I guess, is that I'm actually dating again. And I'm not sure how I'm handling it. I think this may also be part of the depression. I've been alone for so long that I'm having trouble just letting go and having fun when we go out. It's almost like - like I have to learn how to trust again. Does that make sense?
I do enjoy spending time with Boy and doing things with him, but I think he wants to go faster than I do. Not sex, but relationship wise. He asked me to spend the night at his place next week, but we've only really been dating for two weeks or so. That's - really pretty quick. I told him I'd have to think about it, because I don't want to rush anything and at this point, I'm having enough trouble processing the thought that I actually have someone to do stuff with and to flirt with.
My dating skills are rusty, sigh.
Ok, tired now and heading to bed. Sorry if this was a little off. I took some meds that seemed to creep up on me as I was typing and now my brain is foggy. You all take care, talk to you later.
*Hugs*
Got my new glasses in today, yay! I look way cool, for a geek, and I can see again!
Not much happening. Work is going good, so I'm still hoping to be converted to a regular instead of a seasonal. Although it's not what I want to do with the rest of my life, it is a good paying job and the people are really great. So, here's hoping I can keep kicking butt and they decide they want to keep me.
Have been fighting depression the past few days. Even though everything is going well and there really isn't a reason, I've been sinking slowly again. Gar. I have a doctor's appointment next week and hopefully we'll figure something out. Had a bunch of lab work done and it turns out I have a Vitamin D deficiency, which probably explains a lot. I plan on spending as much time as I can stand outside in the sunshine tomorrow. It's been in the 100s F, though, so I may just have to settle for taking a supplement.
The big thing for me, I guess, is that I'm actually dating again. And I'm not sure how I'm handling it. I think this may also be part of the depression. I've been alone for so long that I'm having trouble just letting go and having fun when we go out. It's almost like - like I have to learn how to trust again. Does that make sense?
I do enjoy spending time with Boy and doing things with him, but I think he wants to go faster than I do. Not sex, but relationship wise. He asked me to spend the night at his place next week, but we've only really been dating for two weeks or so. That's - really pretty quick. I told him I'd have to think about it, because I don't want to rush anything and at this point, I'm having enough trouble processing the thought that I actually have someone to do stuff with and to flirt with.
My dating skills are rusty, sigh.
Ok, tired now and heading to bed. Sorry if this was a little off. I took some meds that seemed to creep up on me as I was typing and now my brain is foggy. You all take care, talk to you later.
*Hugs*
