*Raises hand weakly* I'm ok!

[piplover]

I survived having a houseguest for a week!  Maybe not very successfully, but I made it.  Things were -  hrmmm, tense, I guess would be the right word.  Apparently my ex thought that there were going to be sexy fun times while he was down here and I - well, that was pretty much the last thing on my mind.  He was rather put out when I told him he was sleeping on the couch, and from then on things were rather uncomfortable.

He wasn't horrible, or tried to do anything.  But he was very - I don't know, passive aggressive?  Taking verbal pot-shots at me, and although I'm pretty sure he was just teasing, having to deal with that for 5 days was pretty wearing. 

We drove up to Seattle on Monday for my doctor appointment with the specialist, stayed the night in a hotel with twin beds, and then was told by the doctor that I had basically wasted my time going up. 

I did, however, get an explanation of what was going on and why my stomach was hurting, which is a big relief.  Apparently, in a small percentage of people, PTSD triggers something in the body and they become hyper-sensitive.  They think this is what happened to me.  So they told me the dose of meds I'm on is exactly what I need to be on, and that the pain will probably come and go for a bit longer until my body stops being so hyper-sensitive. 

So, I'm not counting the trip a total loss. 

And today is my Friday, so I just have to get through work and then I'm off for three days.  Well, except for the CT scan tomorrow, which I am not thinking about because - Yuck!  

I hope everyone is doing all right.  Sorry I wasn't around last week, but I'm back.  Take care, everyone, talk to you soon!

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[piplover.livejournal.com]

Yeah, it was kind of hard knowing he wanted more and not wanting to give more and then having to deal with that tension. But I'm so thankful that at least I know why my body is being so crazy, and that the doctors didn't just tell me, sorry, kid, all in your mind!