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Long time gone
Aug. 18th, 2015 09:14 amI'm probably the worst blogger ever. I've accepted this. I do read your journals every day, and try to comment. But sometimes just existing is about all I'm good for lately.
I think I mentioned that I had adopted a rescue dog several months ago, and she turned up pregnant. The puppies are 9 weeks old now, and even though they're cute, I can't wait to be back to only one dog. She had three puppies, all healthy and perfect little monsters. I've a home for one of them, and possibly the second. I need to find a home for the little girl. I'll miss them, but I just don't have the energy for a puppy. I want my computer room back, and to not have to clean up dog mess all day.
Money is also horribly tight right now. My cable and internet was turned off this morning, since I can't pay the bill until I get paid next week. A few weeks ago my power was turned off, and a month before my gas. I'm barely hanging onto things as it is. Without the help of my mom I would have been screwed several times over. She doesn't know how bad things are, but the other day I came home to find she had bought me groceries. I actually started crying, I was so thankful.
I'm so overwhelmed right now, it's rather hard to be positive, but I'm trying. I was able to purchase my ticket to England, but since round trip was too expensive, I bought a one way and figured I would purchase another one way back. For some reason, though, the one way back from England is even more expensive than the round trip! So I'm juggling expenses to try and figure this out. I still have a mortgage to pay, and bills. Sigh.
And before anyone suggest I not go, forget it. This is the one thing that's been keeping me going when all I want to do is curl up and give up. I may not have a lot of money when I go, but I'm looking forward to getting away from my shitty job, to visitng my sister and friends and doing something that isn't confined to my house or work. I just have to hold out a bit longer, and play adult tetris with my finances.
I think once the last puppy is gone I'll breath a bit easier. They're a big drain on my finances and energy, even if they are adorable.
Take care, everyone. I'm thinking of you all.
I think I mentioned that I had adopted a rescue dog several months ago, and she turned up pregnant. The puppies are 9 weeks old now, and even though they're cute, I can't wait to be back to only one dog. She had three puppies, all healthy and perfect little monsters. I've a home for one of them, and possibly the second. I need to find a home for the little girl. I'll miss them, but I just don't have the energy for a puppy. I want my computer room back, and to not have to clean up dog mess all day.
Money is also horribly tight right now. My cable and internet was turned off this morning, since I can't pay the bill until I get paid next week. A few weeks ago my power was turned off, and a month before my gas. I'm barely hanging onto things as it is. Without the help of my mom I would have been screwed several times over. She doesn't know how bad things are, but the other day I came home to find she had bought me groceries. I actually started crying, I was so thankful.
I'm so overwhelmed right now, it's rather hard to be positive, but I'm trying. I was able to purchase my ticket to England, but since round trip was too expensive, I bought a one way and figured I would purchase another one way back. For some reason, though, the one way back from England is even more expensive than the round trip! So I'm juggling expenses to try and figure this out. I still have a mortgage to pay, and bills. Sigh.
And before anyone suggest I not go, forget it. This is the one thing that's been keeping me going when all I want to do is curl up and give up. I may not have a lot of money when I go, but I'm looking forward to getting away from my shitty job, to visitng my sister and friends and doing something that isn't confined to my house or work. I just have to hold out a bit longer, and play adult tetris with my finances.
I think once the last puppy is gone I'll breath a bit easier. They're a big drain on my finances and energy, even if they are adorable.
Take care, everyone. I'm thinking of you all.