Let us go then, you and I...

[piplover]

This week work has worn me down.  Not the work itself, but the people.  My boss is still horrible at her job, and the bitch is still snarking and gossiping and talking down to me.  I come home feeling like the stupidest, most bumbling idiot.  I sometimes think I'm not qualified for this job, that I'm just making a hash of it.  Other times I realize that's just the gossip getting to me, and I realize I'm actually doing pretty well for never having worked in a doctor's office and working in a place where the manager doesn't know what she's saying half the time. 

Sigh.

I'm just really tired.

And this morning, in a huge What. The. Fuck. Someone rang my doorbell at 1:30.  I was in a sound sleep, which is a rare thing for me, so I was doubly grumpy as I made my way to the door.  They kept ringing the bell, like 5 or 6 times, and when I opened there was some girl leaning against the door frame.  She laughed and apologized and I slammed the door in her face.  God, I was so pissed, it took me some time to get back to sleep, and I woke up still grumpy and pissed.

I keep telling myself I'm lucky to have this job, that it's so much better than Amazon, which it is in so many ways, but at the same time... I'm just so sick of being treated like an idiot and being talked down to. 

Comments

Work

[gellmar64.livejournal.com]

I´m so sorry you´re having such a bad time at work. Oh all those horrible bosses one has to endure in life. Where do they come from? Are they created by some evil supervillain to corrupt the planet, or is it true that you need to be a sociopath to be promoted. Any way, can´t you use the experience you are getting here to find a new job? And I´m sorry to hear that Amazon is such a terrible place to work at. Where I live it is the only place to buy many books and movies. Am I supporting a sweatshop when I buy stuff there? You are a talented writer with so much to give. I hope 2013 will be a better year for you.

[shirebound]

How I wish you could find a job where they value you and treat you well!

Augh, sorry about that 1:30 wake-up. :(

[ingridmatthews.livejournal.com]

After many years in office work, I can say unreservedly that any boss who acts like that is probably threatened by you, for whatever reason. What they say almost invariably comes from a place of insecurity and fear that you are more competent than they are, so they must publicly put you in 'your place'.

If you were truly incompetent, you'd likely never hear a thing. I say this as a manager and once upon a time, a put-upon worker.

[charliemc.livejournal.com]

You ROCK.

Never forget that.

Good managers never tear down their employees -- they build them up. A good team effort makes a difference...

But you need to remember how good you are -- and that you do like this job! So hang in there and don't buy in to what anyone else says...

(hugs)

Re: Work

[piplover.livejournal.com]

I think the horrible bosses all spring up from the ground, and somehow slither their way into the position. It's the only thing I can think of to explain it, lol.

Amazon... It has it's ups and downs. The customer service there is wonderful, but the way they treat their employers. It's not a sweat shop, though they do nickle and dime you. If you are literally over 15 seconds on your break, you will get a warning. If it happens more than once, you can get fired.

I heard from a friend who still works there that they turned the heat down in the building and gave everyone blankets. It's stuff like that that finally forced me to leave, as I couldn't take it anymore.

Still... I still do a lot of ordering from them, and they pay a livable wage. So don't worry about ordering from them. There are a lot worse places to work.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

I wish it, too. A job where I can't wait to get to work in the morning. Ahhh, fantasies, lol.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

That makes me feel a lot better. This week hasn't too bad, knock on wood. I've been trying really hard to not make any mistakes or do anything wrong, and so far neither she or the gossip in the back have got on my case. Of course, it's only Tuesday, so hopefully the rest of the week will go by just as well.

My boss isn't a horrible person, she just really sucks at her job. Sigh.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

Thank you. I needed to hear that. It's so easy to buy into what they're saying, to think that I'm not any good. Sometimes it's easy to forget that I do know the job and I'm good at it.