Thinky thoughts and a meme I'm starting

[piplover]

So, still no job, and I'm going slightly crazy with nothing to really do.  You all get to benefit from the hours and hours of thoughts I've been pondering.  Aren't you lucky?    Never done this before, but I thought I would start a meme.  Is this how one goes about starting a meme?  I have no clue.  Perhaps it is just idle curiosity,  you be the judge.  Looking forward to what you all have to say. 



Have you ever had a moment in your life when you could feel that everything was about to change?  Not something momentous, like 9/11, when the world shifted under our feet, but a single moment or thought that effected only you, when there was no doubt in your mind that everything you knew, everything you had experienced, was leading up to that time and place?


I've experienced this twice in my life.  The first time, and the one that will forever be ingrained in my heart and head, is when I decided to join the Army.  I had been trying, rather unsuccessfully, to join the Air Force for several weeks.  The recruiter was never in his office, my weight was off, everything was conspiring against me.  I had just come back from one such attempt, bitterly frustrated with my life and how things were going.  I pulled into my parking space, turned off the truck, and then sat there for a moment, contemplating my life.  

I was working part time at a Big Lots as a cashier, couldn't afford college, and was living with my dad who had suffered a stroke several months earlier.  I was, in effect, going nowhere fast, and as I sat in that truck, the engine pinging in the cold air of January, I could feel the weight of all my decisions settling on my shoulders.  I could see the "what ifs" and the "should have beens", everything that I had lived through and would yet experience.  It was as if my whole life had been leading up to me sitting in that parking lot, debating if it was worth it to start the truck again and drive all the way back out to the recruiters to try and talk to someone who wasn't Air Force.  

When I turned the key and started the engine again, it was honestly like I could feel myself being steered in the right direction, like a neon sign saying, "Yes, this is the choice that will change your life forever."  

And you know what?  It really did. 

I won't go into my second experience, not now anyway, because it was extremely profound and religious.  But I have to wonder, am I the only one who has ever felt the world change around them in a single moment?  

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[piplover.livejournal.com]

*Hugs you back*

Thank you for sharing, hon. Isn't it amazing how such a small moment in time can change the rest of our lives?