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Shitty day
May. 3rd, 2013 05:29 pmThe first half of the day went pretty well. I wore a cute dress, work was going well. And then around 3pm my boss called me into a meeting. And proceeded to tell me I was doing a shitty job.
When I told her that I was kind of frustrated the girl they hired to help me wasn't there, and that the majority of stuff fell on me, she said that that was because the girl wasn't actually hired to be a co-receptionist. No, she was hired to help the other girls, and to cover my breaks and in the morning. Which is such utter bullshit I can't even think about it without getting pissed again.
The managers specifically told me they were getting me more help, they were hiring another receptionist, and that's what she's listed as on her job, a receptionist. But apparently one person can handle my job just fine, if I pay attention more and ask for more help when I have 3 people standing in line and the phones ringing.
I just.... I don't even know anymore. I'm to the point where I'm questioning everything I'm doing. And oh, that's also wrong, because apparently I need to relax and "not be so hard on myself." Dear God, talked about mixed signals. "You really suck, but don't be hard on yourself. Just work harder and maybe you won't be so incompetent?"
I'm exhausted. I think I'm hitting the end of my rope, and I'm just tired of everything. I'm depressed to where I don't want to do anything. I'm just sick of this bullshit. But when I put in my resumes other places... Silence. I just want to put my head down and cry.
So, I'm getting this out in the hope it will free some of that depression and I can try to forget work for the weekend. Tomorrow I'm planning on either going to a movie or just staying at home playing games all day. Or maybe calling the maybe-boyfriend and doing something. I don't know.
Anyway, enough rambling. I'm going to go make dinner and try to forget about today. Thanks for listening to me bitch.
*Hugs*
When I told her that I was kind of frustrated the girl they hired to help me wasn't there, and that the majority of stuff fell on me, she said that that was because the girl wasn't actually hired to be a co-receptionist. No, she was hired to help the other girls, and to cover my breaks and in the morning. Which is such utter bullshit I can't even think about it without getting pissed again.
The managers specifically told me they were getting me more help, they were hiring another receptionist, and that's what she's listed as on her job, a receptionist. But apparently one person can handle my job just fine, if I pay attention more and ask for more help when I have 3 people standing in line and the phones ringing.
I just.... I don't even know anymore. I'm to the point where I'm questioning everything I'm doing. And oh, that's also wrong, because apparently I need to relax and "not be so hard on myself." Dear God, talked about mixed signals. "You really suck, but don't be hard on yourself. Just work harder and maybe you won't be so incompetent?"
I'm exhausted. I think I'm hitting the end of my rope, and I'm just tired of everything. I'm depressed to where I don't want to do anything. I'm just sick of this bullshit. But when I put in my resumes other places... Silence. I just want to put my head down and cry.
So, I'm getting this out in the hope it will free some of that depression and I can try to forget work for the weekend. Tomorrow I'm planning on either going to a movie or just staying at home playing games all day. Or maybe calling the maybe-boyfriend and doing something. I don't know.
Anyway, enough rambling. I'm going to go make dinner and try to forget about today. Thanks for listening to me bitch.
*Hugs*