Shitty day

[piplover]

The first half of the day went pretty well. I wore a cute dress, work was going well.  And then around 3pm my boss called me into a meeting.  And proceeded to tell me I was doing a shitty job.

When I told her that I was kind of frustrated the girl they hired to help me wasn't there, and that the majority of stuff fell on me, she said that that was because the girl wasn't actually hired to be a co-receptionist. No, she was hired to help the other girls, and to cover my breaks and in the morning. Which is such utter bullshit I can't even think about it without getting pissed again.

The managers specifically told me they were getting me more help, they were hiring another receptionist, and that's what she's listed as on her job, a receptionist.  But apparently one person can handle my job just fine, if I pay attention more and ask for more help when I have 3 people standing in line and the phones ringing.

I just.... I don't even know anymore.  I'm to the point where I'm questioning everything I'm doing.  And oh, that's also wrong, because apparently I need to relax and "not be so hard on myself."  Dear God, talked about mixed signals.  "You really suck, but don't be hard on yourself. Just work harder and maybe you won't be so incompetent?"

I'm exhausted.  I think I'm hitting the end of my rope, and I'm just tired of everything. I'm depressed to where I don't want to do anything.  I'm just sick of this bullshit.  But when I put in my resumes other places... Silence.  I just want to put my head down and cry.

So, I'm getting this out  in the hope it will free some of that depression and I can try to forget work for the weekend. Tomorrow I'm planning on either going to a movie or just staying at home playing games all day.  Or maybe calling the maybe-boyfriend and doing something.  I don't know.

Anyway, enough rambling. I'm going to go make dinner and try to forget about today.   Thanks for listening to me bitch.

*Hugs*

Comments

[dreamflower]

(((hugs)))

It does sound like mixed signals, and makes me think they really don't know what they are doing.

I hope you can find something better soon.

(((more hugs)))

[piplover.livejournal.com]

(((Hugs)))

Thanks, hon. I just wish I could enjoy the job and be what they wanted, rather than hate it and be a disappointment to them.

[shirebound]

That's incredibly frustrating, Pip. I'm sorry to hear that you're not getting the help you were promised at work.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

(Hugs)

It's very frustrating to have help for a bit, and then have it taken away and told I don't need it, when I clearly do.

[beadattitude.livejournal.com]

I kick this person on your behalf.

My first employer tried to give me a pep talk once and I thought I was being fired. Soooo, I can relate. Oy.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

Hahah! Thanks, hon! I wish I could kick her on my own, but I fear I wouldn't be able to stop!

When she pulled me inside and said she wanted to know what to do help me, I told her, "Tell me what I'm doing right, first off. All I get told is what I'm doing wrong!" And she agreed. Really, I don't know how either of the managers reached their positions.

[charliemc.livejournal.com]

Seriously? I don't like the way you're being treated. I think it's common to treat receptionists poorly, by the way -- which is just so wrong! It makes me see red.

Hang in there. You know, something like this can suddenly take a turn for the better -- especially if you don't show your feelings. Let them think you're confident and fine with things. Screw them! Just play 'happy' and move on...

You never can tell. It might work out.

(hugs)

[piplover.livejournal.com]

Thanks. It pisses me off, too, lol! I think receptions are treated poorly, which is really counterproductive, since I think they're the heart of most businesses.

Seriously, I want to write a novel where the evil overlord is the receptionist, and no one realizes it until they've taken over the whole world!

[glorfinniel.livejournal.com]

Ugh, why are people so awful? Sorry that you're having such a rough time there :( I hope it gets better and they see your worth or that you find something better soon!

[piplover.livejournal.com]

Thanks! *Hugs* I'm just hoping I can find something that will let me look forward to going to work, rather than dread it.

[rereader.livejournal.com]

Oh, for heaven's sake! It sounds like your managers are the incompetents here, absolutely!

[piplover.livejournal.com]

Thanks! Sometimes it's hard to remind myself that no, I'm not an idiot, and that they're really quite crap at their jobs.