Waves

Today was a really hard day.  There wasn't really any one thing, it was just a lot of really cranky people taking out their pain and frustration on me.  It wears me down.  I really have to find a new job, because I don't think I can handle many more days like this.

Money is incredibly tight right now.  I'm hoping that by the end of June I'll be caught up on the house, and will then be able to file the bankruptcy.  I just want it to be taken care of.  I'm so damn tired all the time.

My mom has been incredible, and helped me out with food.  She gave me a lot of canned vegatables from her pantry, and some stuff to make soup.  I can't thank her enough.  Because of that, I won't be stuck eating eggs and rice for the month.

I can't wait for the weekend.   I need to just relax and calm down.  I'm so stressed that my RA is flaring, which just makes me more tired and stressed. It's a hateful circle.  I'm hoping to get some reading done, maybe, hopefully, some writing.

I just want to not have to be afraid any more, to be able to stop worrying.

Being an adult is hard.