So...

[piplover]

Well, apparently I may be quitting sooner than I thought.  My boss just called and said that due to my shitty numbers, I'm being recalled to the site next Friday. I informed her that this will in no way improve my numbers, and will only lead to anxiety attacks and more shitty numbers.  And yes, I did use those exact words. She basically told me it's going to happen anyway, so there we are.

Currently, the very thought of having to go into the site to work is making me want to vomit. I hate the site. It's too distracting, too loud, too smelly, and too filled with people.   And it's 20 minutes away.  So I would have to be on site from 10am to 9:30pm, which means I can't get home until 10.  Unless I drive home on my lunch to feed the cats and such. My God, the cats. 

I'm just... I don't know what to do. I'm not financially able to quit yet.  I've made an appointment to talk to our local worksource, so hopefully something will come of that.  But just the thought of having to go in... I want to cry. I have been crying.  I'm just in a no win situation right now.  I hate this. 

The plan was always to quit in May, after I've cashed in my stocks.  But now... I just don't know.  Hopefully something will come up. 

Send good thoughts and prayers my way? 

Comments

[shirebound]

That truly sucks, my friend. I'm probably going to post my own workplace grumbling tomorrow when I have more energy. Things have changed so drastically over the past couple of years... employees have so much less control over their jobs than we used to.

I hope you can hold out until May. It's so close!

*hugs you very tight*

[piplover.livejournal.com]

*Hugs you tight* I hope your work isn't as frustrating and stressful as mine. It's no fun when you don't enjoy what you're doing.

I think I'll be able to hold out, so long as I can leave whenever I start to panic. That building is really not a good environment for me, and I can see already that it's just going to spiral down. But my stocks vest on the 15th of May, so I just have to make it that long, and then I can quit with a small cushion.

It's just the 20 workdays I have to deal with, lol.

[songspinner9.livejournal.com]

I'll send virtual hugs and good California vibes your way, then. *HUG* I'm sorry your work thing is so awful right now.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

Thanks, hon. I've known that I'd have to quit soon, but I just wasn't expecting things to get so bad before then. I just really need a new job. Hopefully the universe will be kind to me and let me find a new one soon.

[dreamflower]

(((hugs)))

I'm so sorry, sweetie! I hate to sound cynical, but I wonder if they are trying to make you quit before you CAN cash in those stocks...

(((more hugs)))

[piplover.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

Oh, I don't doubt for a minute that they want me to quit. That way they don't have to pay unemployment or my stocks.

I'm only hoping I can hold on until my stocks vest on the 15th. After that, I'm gone. It's just not worth my health any more.

[dreamflower]

It's just the way business seem to work these days-- they don't give a flip for their "human resources"-- on three different occasions the DH has lost a job for economical reasons: once because he was the highest paid employee and was due for another raise; once because they would have had to pay a bonus to the person who recruited him; once, two days before his benefits would have kicked in. The good job he was doing did not matter a lick.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

It really is disgusting how the almighty dollar rules everything now. Hard worker? Doesn't matter. Do a good job? Oh, well.

It's pretty disgusting. I hope that whatever job I get next isn't like this one. Although that's just all the more incentive to open my own business.

[amaraal.livejournal.com]

*hugs and sends some good vibrations* Think of a basket full of kittens. Or baby sloths :) Now it is all dark and fucked up, it can only improve. Clench your teeth, chin up and go through it. You are a warrior! Hey - it is April already.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

A basket of kittens is always good! Thanks, hon.

I think I'll be able to hold out until the 15th, but oh, goodness, is it going to be hard. 12 hours in that building is enough to make me want to strangle myself!

[amaraal.livejournal.com]

I understand you completely. Ten years ago I had the same situation. I sat in my car at six in the morning, thinking: 'What if I don't go there?' I felt like a piece of shit, but... *sigh* did my duty... We are too good for this world :)

So, wade through it! The last four weeks? You'll do it!!

What about baby sloths? :)

Have a nice day! *thinking of you*

[elayna88.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry they're being such jerks. {{{{{hugs}}}}}

[piplover.livejournal.com]

*Hugs*

Thanks, hon. Such is the corporate world. Why fire when you can just make life bad enough that a person quits? That they way they don't have to pay unemployment. Ugh.

[nodbear.livejournal.com]

Sorry it is so difficult - it does sound horrid - but you are a resourcedful and brave soul and hopefully it is not very long ou have to endure it any more.

Lots o fthouhgst and prayers are coming your way and think also not only of kittens and opher lovly thinss but also of the geanealogy hopes and of 2013 in England againh hoepofully

appotcard is alrady on its way anbd there is a second one about to be sent as well.

Nil carborundum as we say here = don't let the bastards get you down !

[piplover.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the good thoughts and prayers! I am trying to keep my fighting spirit up, and preparing for the next month. I keep reminding myself that I've done harder things, and it's only a month I have to get through.

I won't let the bastards get me down! I refuse to give in to them!

[nolan-ash.livejournal.com]

Praying for you, piplover.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

Thanks! I need all the good thoughts and prayers I can get!