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piploverWell, apparently I may be quitting sooner than I thought. My boss just called and said that due to my shitty numbers, I'm being recalled to the site next Friday. I informed her that this will in no way improve my numbers, and will only lead to anxiety attacks and more shitty numbers. And yes, I did use those exact words. She basically told me it's going to happen anyway, so there we are.
Currently, the very thought of having to go into the site to work is making me want to vomit. I hate the site. It's too distracting, too loud, too smelly, and too filled with people. And it's 20 minutes away. So I would have to be on site from 10am to 9:30pm, which means I can't get home until 10. Unless I drive home on my lunch to feed the cats and such. My God, the cats.
I'm just... I don't know what to do. I'm not financially able to quit yet. I've made an appointment to talk to our local worksource, so hopefully something will come of that. But just the thought of having to go in... I want to cry. I have been crying. I'm just in a no win situation right now. I hate this.
The plan was always to quit in May, after I've cashed in my stocks. But now... I just don't know. Hopefully something will come up.
Send good thoughts and prayers my way?
Currently, the very thought of having to go into the site to work is making me want to vomit. I hate the site. It's too distracting, too loud, too smelly, and too filled with people. And it's 20 minutes away. So I would have to be on site from 10am to 9:30pm, which means I can't get home until 10. Unless I drive home on my lunch to feed the cats and such. My God, the cats.
I'm just... I don't know what to do. I'm not financially able to quit yet. I've made an appointment to talk to our local worksource, so hopefully something will come of that. But just the thought of having to go in... I want to cry. I have been crying. I'm just in a no win situation right now. I hate this.
The plan was always to quit in May, after I've cashed in my stocks. But now... I just don't know. Hopefully something will come up.
Send good thoughts and prayers my way?
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Date: 2012-04-13 10:56 pm (UTC)I hope you can hold out until May. It's so close!
*hugs you very tight*
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Date: 2012-04-14 07:06 pm (UTC)I think I'll be able to hold out, so long as I can leave whenever I start to panic. That building is really not a good environment for me, and I can see already that it's just going to spiral down. But my stocks vest on the 15th of May, so I just have to make it that long, and then I can quit with a small cushion.
It's just the 20 workdays I have to deal with, lol.