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[piplover]

I just had a long talk with my section sgt. Apparently, he wants to know why I suddenly have a bad attitude and why I told my team cheif that I didn't care when she gave me my counseling for my gaff on Monday.
I told him the truth. That I was tired of having people talk bad behind my back, and that I finally just realized that I have to do my job, no matter what, so I might as well just keep my mouth closed, do as I'm told, and hope to get through the day.
Also, even after my tape test, my sgt tells me I am still too fat and that I need to exercise more and eat less. No shit, Sherlock. So, as of tomorrow, I am starting a 700 calorie diet and increasing my exercise routine to 15 miles a day. Hopefull this will help, and I figure 700 calories can't be as bad as the Atkins diet.
At least I can decide what to eat, like an apple or an orange.
I just can't wait to go on leave and get this place out of my head for a while. My sgt told me he is going to make some changes while I am away, but he has been saying that for a long time. I don't expect anything to be different, and realize I just have to deal with stuff the way it is. Its not easy, its not fun, but I can do it.
I just have to come to terms with that fact that this is my life, for good or for bad, and the only way I can change it is to change my attitude. As Shakespear said: "There is nothing good or bad, but thinking makes it so."
Well, I'll work on finding my smile again, and not letting the people get to me so much. And hopefully, by the time I get back from leave, they'll have found someone else to torment.
Have a good weekend, all!

Comments

[rabidsamfan.livejournal.com]

Your sergeant is full of shit. 700 calories a day when you're running fifteen miles? That's just plain wrong. Better than the Atkins diet, but still asking for major physical problems. Talk to your doctor first. Low blood sugar could also account for your attitude.

[glorfinniel.livejournal.com]

And you too, me dear, it sounds like so deserve a good time.

I'm sorry that things are like this for you - I hope things work out soon!

Try and find that smile soon! *hugs you* And remember, that offer to come over here is still open! :)

[azur-infinie.livejournal.com]

I admire your perseverance, Pip. I do hope things start to look better soon. *hugs*

[baylorsr.livejournal.com]

I know you've been having a wretched time, and I hope things improve soon. And have you talked to a doctor about your diet? Your body might be under the impression that you're starving on 700 calories, and is hording body fat.

Know that some of us are sending good thoughts your way!

[elanor1013.livejournal.com]

Be careful about having too few calories. Usually 1200 is good for a diet. Too few can slow down your metabolism and screw you up more. 1200 might be slower but it will stay off better.

Good luck, and congrats on passing your test.

I tried Atkins for a while, and did well on it, but I got bored!

Anyway, I know how hard dieting is--I have been doing it on and off since I was eight, (oh well!), so I wish you the best, just be healthy and take care of yourself while you are working at it!

*hugs*

[pippinswolf.livejournal.com]

not to sound like a mother hen, dear, but 15 miles a day and 700 calories is not enough. Make it 1000. Anorexia isn't the answer, either.
love you

[budgielover.livejournal.com]

That diet and exercise program sounds dangerous, sweetie. Damaging yourself is highly possible with such a schedule. Your superiors wouldn't want that. Please don't undertake a regime that could hurt you.