A rotten end to a miserable day...

[piplover]

After I got off work I changed into a skirt and tank top and headed out to the mall. As I was walking down the hall, I said hello to two people who I thought were my friends. As soon as I passed, I heard one whisper to the other, "She's gotten fat!"
I know it shouldn't bother me, but it did. I went to the mall, bought the book I wanted, and now I don't even want to go to the store to get groceries. I got paid, which was nice because I can pay my bills now, but I think I am just going to bury myself in a book and hide away from the world for a while. Self-pity is very unatractive, and right now I feel really ugly.

Comments

[rabidsamfan.livejournal.com]

I doubt you're really fat -- and at least they didn't say it to your face. Comfort yourself with the thought that the "ideal" weight range being pushed in the US is for people who are skinnier than the folks who actually live the longest. (Read "The Obesity Myth" if you don't believe me.)

Dieting all the time can leave you depressed and miserable. If you're healthy in every other way, why should you care about whether or not the world thinks you're fat?

[rabidsamfan.livejournal.com]

(p.s., that was a rhetorical question, actually. I know why we all care to some extent, but sometimes you gotta blow a raspberry at the world.)

[piplover.livejournal.com]

You're right, of course, but it still hit me like a ton of bricks. I have battled my weight most of my life, and I actually look better than I have for a while, but the medication I am on makes me gain weight as a side-effect, and it makes me very self-concsiouse. So to have someone point it out, well, it just took me by surprise.

[rubynye.livejournal.com]

What she said. Besides, two fake friends aren't even the world.

*gentle hugs*

[piplover.livejournal.com]

Thanks.
*hugs back*
Usually I don't let things like that bother me, but today was a rotten day.

[g-i-dennis.livejournal.com]

Hrm. Self-image is a pretty powerful thing. I'd say to hell with the cats. *shrug*

Anyway, HOW did you get paid? You have a pretty cool bank, I must say.

[piplover.livejournal.com]

Lol. Usually I get paid 5 days early, as soon as the money hits the bank. I love having a little community bank.
And as for the cats, well, it just hit me in my weak spot. The medication they have me on makes me gain weight as a side effect, and I have never been really tiny. I just wasn't expecting it, and I'm pretty self-conciouse as it is.
I guess I just have to work out more and eat less, and see if that works.

[g-i-dennis.livejournal.com]

Well, working out more and eating RIGHT (not neccessarily LESS) is never a bad thing... unless you become obsessive about it... but being obsessive about anything is bad...

[lil-banik-slave.livejournal.com]

Awe babe *hugs you* they might have been exaggerating. Don't beat yourself up about it, I'm sure you're not fat and even if you were who cares at the end of it *shrugs* doesn't make you any different from the other people, as long as your healthy and fit.

Enjoy your book, which one was it if you don't mind me asking?

[ansostuff.livejournal.com]

(((Kelly)))

[pippinswolf.livejournal.com]

You're toned and muscular, not some anorexic little twig that looks like poorly-strung together Tinker Toys.
((loves))

[primsong.livejournal.com]

Aw, (((((pip))))) That hurt!!!

*wants to slap so-called friends upside the head with a trout...hard.*

[budgielover.livejournal.com]

You mustn't let that unkind and thoughtless remark upset you so. People are thoughtless. If that person knew how much he/she hurt you, he/she would be horrified.