Close your eyes and hope for the best

[piplover]

I did something I thought I would never do. I gave my mom a copy of Soldier's Heart.  My Sherlock Holmes story that has explicit slash sex in it.  OMG, what have I done?  

*Face palm*

Also, I gave my sister a link to the story on AO3.  I think I'm either crazy, or incredibly foolish.

But...

My family hasn't read anything I've written except for a few essays for university and some stories I wrote when I  was, like, 12.  And I'm really proud of that story.  I'm really proud that it's almost 200 pages, and that I spent nearly 9 months on it, and that I poured my soul into it and made it as good as I possibly could.  And I think I just wanted my family to know, if only in this one instance, what I can do when I try.

I don't think my mom will be horrified. I warned her as I handed her the copy what it contained, and she just smiled and told me she didn't care. I also warned my sister when she said she wanted to read it.  So I don't know what they'll think of it.

But I hope they like it.  And they won't laugh, or tell me it isn't very good.  I want them to like it, and be proud of me.  

This is, honestly, the first fannish thing they have read of mine.  I don't know if I want to stand defiant and say, "Yes, this is me, all of me, and I'm not ashamed!"  Or to bury my face in my hands and just hope they never mention it again.

Has anyone else showed their family their writing, especially if it has NC-17 in it?  Honestly, this is the ONLY thing I've written with NC-17 content, so of course I have to give it to them.

Oh, God!

Comments

[forcryinoutloud.livejournal.com]

*hugs* Oh hon. *G* Honestly, I'm in awe of you right now. Some of my family know that I used to write, and they know that it was called fanfiction about some of the shows I liked, but they've never read anything I've written and I cannot imagine ever letting them. I'm sure though that, since you warned them beforehand what the story contained, that they will be fine with it. And I agree with Lavvyan, even if in the end they aren't proud of you (though again, like Lavvyan I can't imagine that) you should be totally proud of yourself for such an awesome accomplishment! *smishes*

[piplover.livejournal.com]

I'm a bit in awe of myself, lol. I never thought I would do that, but after I got back from England, I realized that if something happened to me, they would never know this huge part of my life. And I wanted my mom, at least, to see something I'm so proud of.

Hopefully, they'll be open minded enough and just enjoy it, but it feels almost like baring my porn collection, lol! Eep!